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The Diary of Dark Days

by Janice Whaley

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1.
Possession 04:52
Do you remember That fateful night You first heard me and let me into your soul Into your soul Well I remember it like Just like it was yesterday Although it was Many hearts and wounds ago The oldest magic Your heart trips the magic And when the sound waves travel Deep into marrow, conjure me Follow my voice and I will Yes I will take you there I mean it like it was Just like it sounds, summon me Scratch the needle, tear the silence Turn me right round The oldest magic Your heart trips the magic Let me in Once you hear my voice I’ll never leave I am in the foreground Singing out those veiled words hiding right beneath your skin (possession) I am in the background Mending all those tiny little fractures in your soul (possession) I’ll never leave you I’ll never leave you And when the isolation Tries to swallow you, cast a spell Like a force field to deflect And shield you from the pain I am the time machine To take you back To the time, to the place To the heartbeat of it all The oldest magic Your heart trips the magic Let me in Once you hear my voice I’ll never leave. Lean into the whispers Once you hear my voice I’m here to stay I am in the foreground Singing out those veiled words hiding right beneath your skin (possession) I am in the background Mending all those tiny little fractures in your soul (possession) I am in the foreground Singing out the words your hiding deep beneath your tongue (possession) I am in the background Singing out those tiny little voices in your soul (possession) I’ll never leave you I’ll never leave you
2.
Pretend 06:42
Oh, alternate reality I will be what ever you need me to be Put on this hat Grab that coat there Time to become someone else I’ll wear my best lipstick You'll pour on the charm We can be whoever we want To step out of our rough-draft skin And dive into the night To make believe that it all works out Though the fire’s at your door It burns so red white and blue Oh take me out of here with you Let’s play pretend I’ll be the monster that’s howling for you You be the shadow that wraps around us so carefully I wish that I had a different background I wish that you weren’t so pixelated By the way... do you know how to keep breathing? Don’t take your eyes off me But don’t drain your battery Let’s just be whoever we want I’ll be wearing red in a broken room (As seen from behind the curtains) You'll be changing shape in the pale moonlight Just to jump out when I look away Oh it’s getting hard to take I wish that I was right there by your side Help me find the alternate reality tonight Let’s play pretend You be the monster that’s howling for you I'll be the shadow that wraps around us so carefully You are so unreal You are so unreal Let’s play pretend I'll be the monster that’s howling for you You be the shadow that wraps around us so carefully Let’s play pretend I’ll be the monster You be the shadow
3.
Dark Days 05:06
So much for stories tried and true Well here comes the part you never knew And it was written especially for me and you Well I close my eyes and count to ten Hoping to even-keel and then When I open my eyes nothing's changed It's all same as it ever was but now We're gonna watch you melt It's going to be a long day for you They stood on high and called you out For trying to bring the end about In a cataclysmic call to ending things Can't you see I'm for you, you're for me Well I just can't fight it anymore No I just can't fight it anymore This colossal washout of misery Flowing down and out to the sea We're gonna watch you melt Oh any day now we're gonna watch you melt It's going to be a long day for you Oh watch you melt Did you think that you could get away with it? Did you think that we would never find out? Oooh fuck around and find out And if we had a do-over If we went back to the start Don't you know we would make the same mistakes Headed for dark days You're headed for dark days But soon we're gonna watch you melt Oh yeah, we're gonna watch you melt
4.
I really can't explain it she said It's as if I'm not at all here This feeling that I'm not fully opaque And the pen scratched at the paper quietly on and on and on Then she stopped to force a tear But neither this nor laughter came Did you steal the last piece of the puzzle? The one that could have helped me to fit in If I weave the threads of you silence Into arms that I wrap around me It wouldn't change the fact that I just don't belong here And I fear I can't shake this gutwrench If I.... Keep it inside Keep it locked up Keep it safe Where no one will find out When I'm in a crowd When I'm all alone I just can't shake this gutwrench When I am with you I'm still so alone I just can't shake this gutwrench If I weave the threads of you silence Into arms that I wrap around me It wouldn't change the fact that I just don't belong here And I fear I can't shake this gutwrench When I'm in a crowd When I'm all alone I just can't shake this gutwrench When I am with you I'm still so alone I just can't shake this gutwrench
5.
It was the darndest thing You'd never believe where I woke up It was pitch dark And the ceiling was just above my head And everyone else was six feet above me What a wake-up call What a wake-up call It's strange the things that go through your mind Like the time when you posted that How-To Guide If this should happen to you... Well here's How to escape being buried alive Here is the low-down, the pro trick To escape being buried alive Here is a list of things you must do To free yourself Screaming increases anxiety And you've only go one more hour left to breathe Cross your arms at the waist And pull your shirt right over your face To keep the dirt out Of your mouth Push the lid over To one side Push the dirt down All the way down to your legs And don't forget to breath slowly As you try your best to sit up That's how you escape being buried alive Here is the low-down, the pro trick To escape being buried alive Here is a list of things you must do To free yourself To free yourself Free yourself Can't believe I did it Can't believe I... Free yourself
6.
Stepping Out 06:10
Peel away the broken skin Of sour grapes Death defying reason Falls into place Woke up from a real life To set the dreams alite It takes guts to step out into the unknown Believe, it's time to believe Stepping out Believe, it's time to believe Every little step Every little step I'll be there for you Every little step Stepping outside without spacesuits Fall away the cracked shell Of wariors past Terrifying freedom Of being here at last Hold tight to the rope now Don't look down On the verge of everything And turn it into sound Believe, it's time to believe Stepping out Believe, it's time to believe Stepping outside without spacesuits Break free of the rusty lock And old chains The warmth of letting love win Will sustain Wrap your arms around me Feel how it sounds Kiss me til we run out of breath And the earth stops spinning 'round Believe, it's time to believe Stepping out Believe, it's time to believe Stepping outside without spacesuits It's our turn now Hold my hand We'll do this together Kiss me til we run out of breath And the earth stops spinning 'round
7.
I can not understand How you hold me to you It's stronger than gravity I can feel you pulling me to you You're like thunder in mid-July You caught me by surprise Do you realize you're my gravity? I will follow you Through the Land of Ooo And Florin, too Or anywhere, just take my hand We can build a robot Or forge a sword Late night popcorn and nature shows Tell me how a star is born I could have sworn It's just like popcorn And if I had to put it into words You are the brightest star in the sky You are my scientist You are the Everything's Alright Nothing else in the world Can make me see the world like you do There's my heart up ahead On the path you're on I sing this song To light your way Make things ok Oh the places you'll go And things you'll do And when you dream I'll meet you there In a flying car to anywhere, I don't care Who needs gravity? I don't care where we go You're my gravity Love stronger than plutonium, rocks, lemonade, tardigrades It's just the science of things Love stronger than earthquakes, bombs, hurricanes, tidal waves It's just the science of things Love stronger than ionic bonds, trucks, pyramids, crystal caves It's just the science of things It's just the science of things
8.
Did you forget to lock the door? It’s wide open now To let the crazy out Would anyone love you after this? Once you let the poison seep out Everyone will know Everyone will see Would anyone love you after this? Would anyone need you after they all know? Would anyone love you after this? Would anyone need you after they all know? You tried so hard to keep you secrets But then in an instant they go crashing through the door Would anyone love you after this? Would anyone need you after they all know? Would anyone love you after this? Would anyone need you after they all know? They saw the poison under the breastbone They saw the poison seeping out They saw the poison under the breastbone They saw and they will never ever love you Tried to hide all the destruction inside But once it’s free there’d be nowhere to hide All would see your worst amplified Would anybody love you? Would anybody love you after this? Did you lock the door?
9.
Roadblock 04:43
Stuck in the stands-still again It’s the same routine day after day We don’t look at each other, it’s better that way Just keep spinning our wheels in the same damn place Try to change lanes, oh let me through It’s the least you can do But I know another way home Don’t be that way Oh, I will run you down 'Cause I am stuck on the road I am stuck going nowhere A million miles per hour Oh, you’re the roadblock my dear You always say you will move over You always say the road is clear Kiss me so hard And then get out of my way We’ve just been inching along We’ve just been inching along I am stuck on the road I am stuck going nowhere A million miles from nowhere At a million miles an hour A million miles to nowhere At a million miles per hour And oh, I'm spinning my wheels Let me go right now Oh, I’m stalling out Let me go right now Oh, don’t be such a roadblock Don’t be such a roadblock oh baby, don’t be such a roadblock Don’t be such a roadblock
10.
Oh can't you see it I'm lying on the ground Broken heart and head and bones You said you would Be there to break my fall So then why am I lying here alone It's so typical of me It's so very typical of me I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I just fall Here lies love bleeding I tried to shake your eyes free of their gaze Turn you empty skull around But still you wouldn't face me It's so typical of me It's so very typical of me I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I just fall Here lies love bleeding Ohh here I go again Amusing myself I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I don't fall in love I just fall Will you ever claim my pile of broken bones Here lies love bleeding Will you ever claim my pile of broken bones
11.
Heart Valve 06:26
If you had a crowbar You could open me up Pry open this rib cage Tune the strings Light the display And blow off the dust Comb through tangled knots Tunnel through this heart valve The exposure's set And joy is leaking in I am growing from seeds you've sewn Crowbar to the heart I'll be new for you Crowbar to the heart I'll be new for you If you opened me up And took a peak way down inside Watered the soil To grow trust from this heart wreck And blow off the dust Comb through tangled knots Tunnel through this heart valve The exposure's set And joy is leaking in I am growing from seeds you've sewn I'm growing hands to touch with I'm growing eyes to see I'm growing love to feel with My heart valve is open I'm open to feel something new I'm hoping to feel love from you I'm open to feel something new I'm hoping to Blow off the dust Comb through tangled knots Tunnel through this heart valve The exposure's set And joy is leaking in I am growing from seeds you've sewn I'm growing hands to touch with I'm growing eyes to see I'm growing love to feel with My heart valve is open When will I see you again? When When When...
12.
Did it crumble around you Did it slip through your fingers The things they said would come to pass Never really materialized There has got to be a better way Did it crack when things settled What was left when the smoke cleared You did you best when all around kept you In a tailspin dreaming There has got to better way It’s a sorry kind of song When the words come out all wrong But you’ll feel better if you Scream to a blue sky It’s the perfect kind of day Great fears with open arms Just hold your head up high and scream to a blue sky Scream to a blue sky Woa, scream to a blue sky Do you feel the winds blowing There’s an audible hum From the new electric current Telling you to just keep on going Chest constrictions be damned It’s a sorry kind of song When the words come out all wrong But you’ll feel better if you Scream to a blue sky It’s the perfect kind of day Great fears with open arms Just hold your head up high and scream to a blue sky Scream to a blue sky Don’t hold back, don’t hold back Scream to a blue sky Don’t hold back, don’t hold back

about

This album was 12 years in the making. I composed the songs in my head on the 280 freeway between San Francisco and San Jose. I recorded demos at home and sang along with them on daily car commutes over the years. Thanks to the pandemic, my friends and I had time to actually record the songs and make the album come to life. I am so proud to finally share this with you.

Dedicated to my scientist, Jaden Cadwising, who, thankfully, slept through most of my demo time in the car.

___THANK YOU___
This album would still be locked in my head if not for the following people: My super talented childhood friends John Given, Nathen Lester, Damien Lester, and Cameron Tuttle. I am filled with immense gratitude to them for bringing my vision to life.

Thank you to Ryan Coseboom for your talent and bucket-loads of patience in mixing and mastering this beast via countless emails over the course of an entire year.

A huge thank you to Josh and Jaden for your inspiration, ideas, listening to the music in all its various stages, and for understanding how much music, and this album in particular, means to me.

A heartfelt thank you to my Patrons, made up of close friends and family, who have supported and funded my ability to make music this past year.

credits

released March 14, 2023

Janice Whaley- Voice, Piano, Keyboards, Sequencing, Writing, Recording, Photography, Graphic Design
John Given- Guitars, Recording
Damien Lester, Upright Bass, Recording
Nathen Lester- Bass, Recording
Cameron Tuttle- Drums, Sequencing, Recording
Ryan Coseboom- Sound Engineer, Mixing, Mastering

Janice's vocals, synths, pianos and drum for track 5 were recorded in her home studios in Joshua Tree, CA
John Given, Nathen Lester and Cameron Tuttle recorded their instruments in their home studios across California and Arizona during the pandemic in 2022.

Album design and photography by Janice Whaley

Executive Producers:
Adrian Ainsworth
Cat Butler
Josh Cadwising
Kathy Johnson
Barbara Pollak
James Roday Rodriguez
Rebekah Soboski

Project Backers:
Tara Borbon
Tess Boyd
Elma Cadwising
Hakim Cassimally
Mark Cherry
Larry Ebstein
K Flynn
Danny G
Nancy Hale
James and Emily Hargreaves
Jesse Mendoza
Ian Murphy
Jesse Randell
Tim Satterwhite
Penelope Schneider
Cameron Smith
Scott C. Smith
Veronica Taylor
Michelle White-Juillet

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NEW ALBUM The Diary of Dark Days
was released in 2022 to Patrons. Public release March 14, 2023.

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Awarded San Francisco Guardian's 'Best of the Bay 2011' & SF Weekly's 'Best of San Francisco 2011,' Janice Whaley covered every song by The Smiths in 2010, using only voice in 30-50 layers and 1300 hours.
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